As I enter the New Year, I find that I am coming into it with a great deal of fear. Some would look at this as a negative and intimidating way to start out the year, but for me, I am actually seeing this as a golden opportunity! This fear within me is opportunity to grow, to heal, and to better myself! I have a dream of climbing mountains on the weekends with my dog, experiencing nature once again like I used to. Inside me there is this force that just knows that I am on the right path for my health.
After years of fighting I am finally going to take a deep plunge in my Lyme treatment. In thirty-six days, I am traveling for a 3-week intensive treatment at Klinik St. Georg in Bad Aibling, Germany, that’s 36 days! You can imagine I as it gets closer and closer to that day, inside I am building up more and more anticipation.
There are lots of “What ifs” but I have learned to accept them naturally by allowing the thoughts just pass by like clouds floating in the sky.
I think it’s natural to fear something that is unknown, and it can be hard to accept those “What ifs” as clouds just passing by. Sometimes fear can overcome logic and keep us from doing what is important in life. When we allow the fear to get in the way of prime opportunities we end up with regrets or possibly worse. But if we accept the fear and live alongside the fear then the possibilities could be endless.
It’s important to put trust in your gut feelings and listen to our bodies.
“Trust yourself, you know more than you think you do.” – Benjamin Spock
I recently asked myself what the fear I am feeling my upcoming about treatment means to me … Is it fear of not working? Or fear of being let down? Fear of traveling? Financial fears? Fear of surviving? Or even just fear of what life will be like after Germany? For me, the answer is Yes on all accounts. I am afraid, but I am choosing to lean into those fears with a determination that I will come out on top and will live a full life once again!
See, if we face our fears with determination and allow the story to unfold as it should naturally then we will find that we were able to do it all along! I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, “WE ARE STRONGER THAN WE KNOW!”
We have the power inside ourselves to see fear as strength, fear as courage, and fear as a chance to win!
“Hey! I’ma keep running cause a winner don’t quit on themselves!” – B.Knowles-Carter
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